Trying to work two businesses at once is tough. One is my own; one is not. The business that is mine is amazing because it’s just that: mine. It will never be anyone else’s or belong to anyone else but me. I’m very stingy when it comes to work. (Although my business platform is mainly Instagram, and I do get ideas from my other half on marketing strategies. I’ll admit that much. He’s amazing.)
The business that isn’t mine is very hard on me, because I try to make it mine. I’m not in charge. I’m actually rather low on the totem pole, but that doesn’t stop me from getting extremely pissy when someone tells me to jump. I never ask how high. I’m not a puppet. You tell me to jump, and I will lie down on the floor and curl up in the fetal position and think horrible thoughts about you. Don’t try me. I will do it.
I recently wished bad karma upon someone at work who doesn’t treat me with very much respect – one of my superiors – and she was bitten by a brown recluse spider last week. I believe in karma and energy and revenge. I didn’t wish death or limb loss on her, but I can’t say I didn’t thank my friend Karma when I heard of the spider bite.
(She’s fine. She’s taking aspirin now, so she’s not in any extreme pain. C’mon folks, I’m not that mean!)
Anyway, I’m currently sitting up in bed typing this at 11:00 pm even though I have to be up at 5:30 in the morning, because when you have thoughts, you have to get them out! If I don’t get them out, they get lost in my head forever. My poor head only has so many storage compartments; I have to get some of these ideas out.
I’ve written posts before about my Beachbody coaching business. I’ve been working it for a few months now, and it’s really working for me! I’ve been wanting to go out and buy a new personal development book lately, but I haven’t had the chance to get to the bookstore. Instead of dwelling on that, I just looked up some Gabby Berstein videos on YouTube while I was doing my makeup this morning.
I can’t remember the name of the video, but she was telling the story about how, in January 2016, she decided she wanted to have a baby. She talked about how she tried and tried to control the situation by putting off deadlines with the expectation that she was going to get pregnant soon, and yet she never did. Her moral of this story was that you shouldn’t stress over things that you cannot personally control.
I thought about that all morning. I have a very hard time deciding what things I can and cannot control. If I’m miserable at work, I think “But I can control this. I can look for a new job.” That’s all fine and true, but if I don’t find a new and/or better job right away, I need to let the universe do its thing. Maybe I’m not finding a better job right this moment because something better is coming along for me in the not-so-near future. Those are the thoughts I need to have; that’s the way I need to think about everything.
My goals for the week include hydration, getting up early and making coffee every morning, and getting to work at least 5 minutes early every day.
Right now, I’m adding another goal to the week of 12/04/2017: Let the universe have your back. It’s going to be this week’s goal for now, but it is inevitably a life goal.
I could think of more, but I’m getting deliriously tired. Goodnight, readers!